All I want for christmas is to be happy

Well I had a good christmas yesterday. I mean any day you wake up alive should be a good day rught? Im honestly thankful for waking up these days. But I really need to get out of this depression I've been in forever. This month I have only spoke face 2 face with 7 people. 2 of witch work for me. the other 2 my Doctor and her receptionist. The other 2, The women in the office I gave my rent to, and said what's Up the one of the janitors. the last was the driver that took me to my Doc's Appt. This is just not the life I want to live. I know somebodies gonna say "well stop living like that" I wish I could just living like this. Its been years and I feel I cant stop it.

I got health problems that adds on the the problem. I want to be the center of attention like I used to be. Ive been single for along azz time. I want a girlfriend But I have to be able to take her out and have a good time you know? If i cant that wouldnt be fair to do to my lady.
i dont know what to do right yet but Im tired of typing so I'll holla @ you L8R.

Missing My Pop

This has been a real tough pass few weeks. On Nov. 1st we my family and me lost our father to his cancer. He has been in the battle with it for several years. but it finally came to and end. We spent a wonderful day with him befor and had a great time laughing and talking shit. like we always did. It was on a warm sunny Sunday. The Redskins had a home game, I remember that because I was caught in the fan traffic passing Redskin stadium. Any way, My Pop will be missed so very much because he new damn neer everyone in the D.M.V. 'D.C., Maryland,Virginia' area and they all showed up at the funneral my sister Boo read a beautiful poem she wrote. My sister Sherri read spoke from the heart and read from the bible. And my little sister Trice sang her ass off. My god yall dont even know... That woman can sing. I never cried when a person sung a song until the day. WOW!! is all I can say. It was the most beautiful thing I ever heard. She was ans is amazing.

Final Thoughts of the day

Hey I jus popped up on here to say goodnite it 4am and Im drowzy as hell tearing up. Oh I did order some cool shyt today. A red Washington National Capital "W", A red Polo shirt, A pair Blk/Grey Nike 6.0's, A LRG longsleeve thermal for the upcomming fall, A Nikon 10mp camera w/ 2G memory card. for my YT. I'll give yall a update later. Good night yall have a good one.

Can Keep Up

Im finding it hard as hell to keep up with all these social networks. Facebook and Twitter are the two Im tryin to stay current on all the reast.. fuck them. every time I get on line someone sez where you been I never seem to catch you on line? I seem to feel like dealin with it at a late hour mostly after 10pm or 11pm. But I still seem to be missing out. Does anyone else have this priblem? L8R.

R.I.P. Micheal Jackson

Well the king of pop has died from a heart attack they said. I didnt know who he was until Billie Jean came out. I heard of the Jackson Five but I was too young to know them. The Thriller Alumb was the one that introduced me to Mike. He was BAD the way he danced and his style was all his own. He was the only star I knew of that had fans all over the world. I heard a comedian say he is the only artis that could have a terrorist dancing with a bomb on his back. lol. M.J. will always be the king HEE HEE.. lol.

Starting my blog

Its like 4am and I tired but I cant fall asleep. I took my sleeping pill but no success yet. lol. Any way nI just wanted to write a little something to start my blog. Ill post whats really on my mind later. Sleep mis on my mind right now.
Im out, L8R.